I just feel so stupid and ashamed. But I cant change what happened. I need to forgive myself and focus on sobriety. Just feeling **** that I willingly kissed the guy ffs. Im MARRIED. I sobered up pretty sharpish when he started to take things that little further and I said no and thank god after 3 NO's he stopped. Never ever in a million years would I had behaved like that sober, its not an excuse, no one forced me to down half a litre of vodka that night. I could kick myself. I just feel bad for kissing another man. What a complete idiot.