Hi Patricia68. I’m no stranger to depression; I’ve struggled with it my entire life it seems. Many people are able to be treated medically but unfortunately I never found the magic pill. My last attempt with AD meds (summer ’14) turned anxiety depression into anxiety rage, which I really think contributed to my leap off of the sobriety wagon at 8 months.
The good news is that off of the sauce, the good days will eventually outweigh the bad ones and you will come to realize that the bad days are only temporary. Just tell yourself “this too shall pass.”