One-to-one therapy would protect your privacy and give you a place to work.
Too bad he won't consider marriage counseling, but that doesn't really help
if one partner is actively drinking.
Good job on getting a doctor's appointment--you may need some meds
for a few days to deal with withdrawal and hopefully he / she can put you
onto some other resources.
Staying sober is the most important thing--if someone sees you in a meeting,
well, maybe they do. Do what you need to manage your addiction
and the rest will fall into place.
It's funny how the most awful things are sometimes just what we need to
wake up out of our fog and take change of our lives again.
Right now, it sounds like your husband is controlling both of you
and the family / community perception is overshadowing all.
What do you want for yourself and the rest of your life enfan?
This event is an opportunity to really engage this question instead of drinking it away.
Sending you a hug. You can do this and come out stronger and better than before. Really.
Take the elevator up and don't get off until you reach the top
