Congrats on 6 weeks sober starlight
Think about why your 6 weeks sober why are you doing this - it won't change believe me I tried we all tried which brings me to my next point
Acceptance
After multiple experiments in my attempts to moderate I failed every single time I accepted that I can't drink safely & I can't drink responsibly
My life has turned around in sobriety I havnt bought a big house nor do I own a fancy car but I have the real me back and not only am I cool with that but you can't buy that in the shops
Think about what your saying & listen to every alcoholic before you who has said the same things
Fwiw 6 weeks is pretty amazing keep building on it give it a spin alcohol won't give you anything close to what sobriety will give you
hang in there bud