Day 7.
First and foremost, Happy Thanksgiving! I hope it's not been too much of a burden for everyone. For better or worse, this is my third Holiday Season trying to get sober. I personally feel good now and hopefully won't have any urges.
Last night was a bit of a different story. At about 7pm, I got that old impulse. It wasn't even specifically to go drink. It was to go do SOMETHING. Well, in sticking with my goal of building this sober life, I decided to hit an AA meeting. There's a myriad of things AA and I don't see eye to eye on, but I do appreciate a community(like SR) of alcoholics and addicts that can sit and vent. It was exactly what I needed.
It's clear as day; I use when I get bored. I still have a lot of reprogramming to do in terms of letting go of associating alcohol to many things; however, I drawing on the 9 months sober I had and will not look back.
Much Love,
Nolan