Originally Posted by
ladyscribbler 
Are you still on the fence about staying married?
I don't want to be married to him anymore. There aren't any passionately negative or passionately positive feelings about it. I don't really care for him anymore. Like the attraction is gone.
I'm working hard to be a better version of myself...I deserve someone who is on that same level. Or at least, I want someone to share moments with who is on that same level. I miss doing couples stuff, but I don't really long to do couples stuff with AH... if that makes any sense. It's what makes dating sound so appealing, having fun with a guy where it's kind of carefree. AH is defensive about every other word that comes out of mouth. And every other word out of his mouth is a lie or backhanded. No other man treats me this way. Suffice it so say, he's not miserable all the time but he's too mean to me too frequently.
When my food allergy daughter is old enough to manage her own Epi Pen, there is no question for me.