Originally Posted by
Croissant 
Snooz. I'm worried about you.
You had already said holidaying up on Townsville was a mistake because you went and drank.
Now you are going to move there?
It wasn't that long ago you were praising Shaun for his love and support, taking time off while you got ready to go into rehab. Now this? I'm just going to say it. I'm very, very worried that Shaun not being around takes away a barrier to drinking.
Sorry, but I'm an alcoholic too, and I know in hindsight leaving my ex was to give myself some unfettered drinking time. Oh, I told myself all sorts of other reasons, but that's what it was.
I would give anything to have him back.
OMG ! :/
Crois , my darling Crois. You saw through that one big time didn't you !!
!
Wtf am I thinking? Who am I kidding?
This post just gave me the biggest slap across the face!
Of course deep down I want to go there and drink , bloody hell , what is wrong with me :-(
I think I've just lost the plot actually . but this post .....forced me to talk to Shaun when I got home.
I showed him your post. We are talking. It started a dialogue.
We have sat down for over an hour discussing it all and mannnnnn what a load of my mind.
Many tears were shed. I've been bottling this up for so long.
I've appologised for my behaviour of indifference. I really do believe I have forced him into a depression as I'm usually always so upbeat and bubbly.
I've lost that along the way.
I believe you are right Dee. I think losing Ryleigh was the beginning of all this. I feel like there has been a death and I'm grieving for her.
I have even discussed the COUNCELLING word with Shaun & he is not keen but wants the marriage and I have realised so do I . After reading all your insightful answers I've had a lot to think about today.
Isn't it amazing , that the people who are the priority in my life at this moment are you guys.
I take your replies very seriously & because you are all so blatantly honest as well , it means so much to me.
At the hospital where I work we are allowed 3 free councelling sessions a year & I'm going to do it. As you said Dee ...why not. Yes why not indeed, what have I got to lose ......just EVERYTHING I once held dear.
This is the beginning.
Crois , I love you. That post slapped me silly.
