Hi and welcome Plssomeonehelp.
We are here with you...and you have more power than you realize.
It takes work, but it is worthwhile work and it gets better relatively quickly.
Have you seen a doctor? It is a good idea, he can assess your potential withdrawal.
AVRT, gave me the tools I needed to take control of my addictive voice and get the ball rolling on my recovery. It is something worth looking into....Take care.