First off congratulations on staying sober for these 5 days.
I can also relate to alot of what you posted...About HR getting involved and having to attend treatment etc...
And good on you for recognizing that ALCOHOL is what got you into this whole mess in the first place.
Drinking will NOT help your situation at all. Though i totally get the temptation to want to.
Do you have any outside support? (Using SR is a great tool, but AA has helped me as well.)
Coming here to SR and making a daily commitment to not drink has helped immensely too.
Don't give up. You're not alone.
Findingtheway