Hi all....
I'm a little glum still today. The loss of my dog, my friend for 15 years, on Friday still weighs heavily with me. The waves of sobbing have subsided... but the blue heaviness is still there.
My suspected SAD is still in swing too... and I wound up skipping my SAD light a couple of days which had a noticeable effect. Add those things up and I've had a weekend that was pretty fraught with emotional rawness and depression.
Still... not once did I have even a niggling thought of drinking or using drugs. I've rolled through these emotions and allowed them to be. I've still managed to laugh, I've still managed to be with my Lady and my family and be present in my life. I've managed to share some of my sorrow, to be alone with it as well. I've managed to get to the gym and go for a run and take a nice hike with my Lady and her dog....
In other words, despite significant loss, sadness, depression, anxiety and turbulence in my Life - I have managed to continue to Live. And I did it without drinking or smoking or taking pills or doing coke or any sort of mind-altering numbing agent whatsoever.
This is an encouraging experience, as I approach 2 years sober. I just thought I'd share it. Because if you've not yet had this sort of experience - I want you to know that you can.
