I was the same way until I realized that when I felt unsafe at those meetings, it was due to the fact that recovery was going to mess with my drinking....therefore, I was unsafe. Alcohol was my security blanket, my solution and until I was willing to let the alcohol go completely, I was stuck. It took me several more years to become willing enough to work with another person to find a new solution.
Sometimes we need medication to help us, but taking something while still drinking may not work so well. Not drinking, taking medication as prescribed, then finding a method to help me stay stopped, well, that is one way to get through early sobriety!