Originally Posted by
doggonecarl 
Here's your first post: You said you wanted to quit before drinking killed you or you lost everything. For that kind of drinking, that's a lot of anxiety and panic attacks, if that alone is the cause. So treat the anxiety...with professional medical care. You'll know soon enough if that's all your drinking was related to, to anxiety, and how much is addiction.
You're absolutely right Carl. Ironically, I was having a panic attack when I wrote my first post & was desperately wanting to buy beer to help it go away! I was and AM scared of alcohol & what it can do to me if I don't stop. I have a friend who died very young of alcoholism and watching her die was so tragic. Scares me so much! Regardless of WHY I drink, I still need to stop because it does make me miserable after my 3-4 hour binge is over. :-(