Lifelesson

So much to my original dismay my loving family told me binge drinking for a few months (30-40 shots) after having been a heavy drink for a few years (10-15 daily) was a problem. They took me to the er cause they knew the truth and without medical help I would've died( I have high blood pressure normally). After detoxing I went to CR for support. After 51 days of sobriety I told myself a massive lie, I could drink again. This binge was only 8 days but just as much consumption so I smartened up and realized I am an alcoholic and went to the er again and it saved my life. Turns out I also have flu and pneumonia in addition to withdraw so here I lie in a hospital bed but I wasn't sure if I can consider this day 2, all I know is I never will to drink again.