Hi TheRake, everything has pretty much been said. The bottom line is that at least temporarily you need to set some boundaries. Not a line in the sand...a brick wall. Give yourself 90 days to see what a sober life really feels like. I'm guessing the loneliness and emotional part of you is looking for a relationship and you believe there's a chance it might happen in a bar. After all, that's where a lot of people hang out and be social. I understand that. Personally, I would put ALL OF IT on the back-burner for now. The drinking will only get worse and ultimately you will end up in the worse case scenario, alone and a drunk. Hang in there. Best wishes.