Thanks guys.
Yup, soberwolf, I have spoken to the doc. He prescribed beta-blockers for the stage fright thing, but your instinct is right on. I think maybe another conversation might be needed. And more yoga. And more walks.
I reached out here today because it's been a rough fall and I don't have support here in my offline life. Which could be my fault, in part, as I tend to keep quiet. This is the only place I've admitted my alcoholism. Anyway, I can hear the AV and felt maybe I needed to just yak for a while here on SR. It helps. Thanks for listening. You guys rock. Hope you had a good day/night!