@Happybeingme Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kind words! I know no one has answers, but sometimes it just feels nice to be heard and sympathized with. He has been doing good and then doing poorly again so many times that I don't even share what's happening with him (good or bad) with others anymore. My mom does the same... so there is no release. You are right about the constant detox being truly awful for him. It's excruciating... and it is no picnic to watch someone you love go through it constantly either. :-/ I thank you for your perspective as someone who is now living a sober life (so happy for you!!!!) - it gives me hope that there is always a chance, if only HE makes that choice. Every minute and every day. I also thank you for your non-judgmental heart towards the challenges he faces as a God-loving, alcoholic, gay man.