Trying so hard and still feel defeated 😔
I called out to work Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday... I was hungover one day, had panic and anxiety attacks the rest of Tuesday. This just drug me downs more. I was having some issues at work, non alcohol related. The company I work for downsized and more work for less people essentially. With it being retail and holidays the workload has quadroopled, I started to lose my organization and the. Fall behind on work... So then I start drinking. Then less gets done, then I feel like my entire life is falling apart. I went to see my counselor Tuesday, my husband came along for support to see what he cane do to help. It was good. I was scheduled off today so I took it. I feel depressed and want to drink. I know I shouldn't. Wanted to come here for support. Maybe it's the time of year, maybe it's all the changes, maybe it's the alcoholism..