God 3 wolves. That's pretty shocking. I've thought about suicide many times and it still crosses my mind. I would never do it though because of my children. I do sometimes wish my life away though to the day when they are all gone and living their own lives and I only have to worry about myself.
I have put on loads of weight recently. I can't seem to stop eating and I have a really sweet tooth. I feel bloated and horrible and all of my clothes are tight. I've made a massive pan of vegetable soup today though and I'm hoping to get through today just on that without eating any chocolate or cake. My mood is still really low and I'm fighting tears much of the time. Food feels like a comfort but only when it's fatty/sugary. I bailed on a friend last night because I couldn't face an exercise class. Just lay in bed and moped and ate chocolate.
If I lived on my own I think I would be drinking again by now.
Everytime I come on here I'm moaning. Sorry about that! I can't talk to anyone and have no-where else to vent I guess.