Thank you for your replies...yes I am involved in service work through the local hospice (patient/family advocacy), my church soup-line, and being born and raised in Seattle (if it's not Starbucks it's not coffee!), am the official coffee maker at my home group.
I diligently write my gratitude lists in the morning and evening, and I do have SO much to be thankful for.
Patience was never my strong suit...I feel I need to hurry up and get there, now that I've made my decision. I am ready to live and be alive and embrace lifes joys and disasters equally with gusto.
I'm really having trouble with self forgiveness and am trying to be more kind to myself and stretch more...just a 6 week slump I guess.
Again, thanks
Love Pearl