Yeah, I have to agree - this is a Drop the Rope situation to me too. Otherwise, the more you engage the more tangled you get in the rope & it feeds that feeling of being the crazy one after all.
I know it hurts Amy, I'm so sorry it's happening this way. ALL of us would go back & make different choices when it comes to how our kids are affected, you aren't alone. Totally understandable to feel crappy about it all sometimes, but don't unpack your bags there & move in, ya know?
How about some great books for you though, what are you reading these days?