Keepingthefaith desperation is the perfect word. If there was an alanon meeting of go right now! But it's almost 1 am! Haha. My daughter just called to tell me she loved me. I needed that. On Monday I think I'll get a sponsor at my meeting. Tonight I needed it. At this moment in time I cannot imagine being on the other side of this. I know it's there I just can't picture it or see it. Thanks for being there tonight. I appreciate it.