My son won't speak to me
So the way my house appeared through my sons eyes is that my husband who always hid his drinking, was the fun nice guy. I was the raging lunatic who made everyone's life miserable. My son always defended his father. Always told me to stop being mean. He always ran to his fathers side. Always protected him. Even when my husband paid my son to lie to me about his drinking last year my son did lie to me and protected his father.
Now my husband is leaving and my son won't speak to me. Only speaks now to his father. My son is 19. I feel like I've now been abandoned by both of them. It's so unfair. And then I end up going to that ugly place of maybe this was my fault. I'm sure some of it is. But I'm so sad tonight that I've lost my husband, my marriage, my family and my son all in one shot. What a crappy night I'm having. Why doesn't this get easier. It just seems to get harder.