Originally Posted by Debbie329

I went. It was a step 2 meeting, I thought it was a speaker meeting. Good news ......the people there were engaged in the discussion. Bad news. I don't believe in a higher power, if there was one where's it been all these years and what now cause I'm at an aa meeting I can summon it like a genie. I think sobriety is about self control w a willingness to avoid self destruction. Anyway I don't want to do the steps......for example ......making amends......everything I've done I meant, talking about your inventory......my psychiatrist told me not to think about the past because I can not fix it. Yet aa wants me to dump it all out . If I go there ......I'll be drinking in a second. I'm going to another aa meeting tonight , it's a speaker meeting at a rehab. I'm going to be forced to go to these meetings for 90 days so I may as well find the ones that don't **** me off ahead of time. I realize I'm stubborn but I'm not stupid.