Fly N Buy

No one can force you to go to meetings - I am sure there's some level of choice in there.

Many go kicking and screaming into AA , you are not unique. As alcoholics we don't like to be told what to do and eventually we may not like the choices we are given as bondage in alcohol does that to us. I made instant judgments about most things. I have found in sobriety most of those immature actions were fueled by stunned emotional development caused by drinking poison daily for many years.

I was an agnostic if we need a label, that's close I guess - when I went into AA. I decided for one of the first times in my life I try some suggestions. I got a sponsor. did some step work to the best of my ability and move forward with my life.

I always perceived the world to be black or white. I have found today it is shaded = gray. I just don't think in absolutes much anymore. Not true for all things, but many.

Glad you're here - thanks for the post and hope you too find your way!!

"....and though perhaps he came to scoff, he may remain to pray"