I'm not going to fight the process and let it take up head space. I think your idea of sober recovery being my higher power is an acceptable idea.....it's been my best resource. I'm looking forward to tonight's meeting, there are also meetings there on Saturday and Sunday ......that leaves me w 4 days to add meetings. I'm doing my research. I do wanna get something out of this .......and I'm not going to get anything out of meetings where I resist their philosophy.