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Old 06-18-2005, 08:09 AM
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Maria83
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Join Date: May 2005
Location: Bensalem,PA
Posts: 42
Don't Know What To Do =-\

Hi everyone! I haven't posted in a while and I ran into a little problem last night so I figured I'd see if anyone has any suggestions. My recovery is going REALLY good thanks to everyone on here and people at my NA meetings! I'll have my 30 days tomorrow!!!!!!! I want to say thanks to all the people on here for all your support and help on the tough days!!!

I went to an NA meeting last night and I have been seeing this guy around at a few of the meetings I go to and he seems really nice but have never really talked to him one on one before until last night. I was talking to a friend for a minute during our 10 minute break but she doesn't smoke and of course I had to get that one cig in before the break was over. HAHA! I went outside and I saw the guy and he came over and started talking to me. I had asked him how he was because I had noticed when he shared at a meeting earlier that week he was having a problem with something and we talked about that for a while. He noticed I drove and asked if maybe I could give him a ride to some meetings and I said sure. Anyway, to make a long story short after the meeting he was getting ready to leave with his ride *which was parked next to me* and as I was getting ready to pull away he was like can I have a ride home. I was thinking if he has a ride why does he need me to take him home but I said yes anyway even though I didn't understand why he needed a ride. He got in the car and explained that the other two guys who were taking him home were going down to the city and he didn't want to go...so that explained why he wanted a ride. On the way to his recovery house he made a comment like he knew I wasn't seeing anyone right now because one of the other girls in NA had told him. *Thinking wow great what else is this girl telling him* Then he proceeds to ask me how do I feel about a relationship right now and that I need someone in my life like that right now to help me. How would I feel if he were to ask me to go out with him to the movies and go on some dates. That we could help each other in recovery and that that type of relationship would be good for the both of us. At this point I am really feeling uncomfortable because I don't know what to say to him and I was just like I don't think at this point in my recovery that it would be a good idea and for every reason or excuse I had for not wanting to be in a relationship for he had a comment as to why it would be good. When I went to drop him off I noticed the car and the guys that were supposedly going to the city were at his recovery house when I pulled up. Then as he is getting out he asked for an "NA hug" so I gave him a hug and as I hugged him he leaned over to kiss me and I turned my head so he just got the side cheek. =-\ This guy is nice but is really not my type and besides that I have other things I need to worry about besides the added b*llsh*t that comes along with a relationship. Not only that everyone who has a good amount of clean time says you should wait a while before you get into a relationship. My problem is .... he has been around a little longer then me and knows a lot more people in NA then me and things tend to be a little clicky in NA. You notice at some meetings it's like high school a little there are certain clicks. LOL I really think that is sad and pathetic but that is life. I don't know how to let this guy down without coming off as being a b*tch. I tried to be nice last night about everything but he just didn't seem to be getting it. I don't want him to take anything the wrong way and then have him go back and tell people oh shes a b*tch and then people not talk to me at the meetings anymore. The only reason I am thinking that is because the other week something similar happened to someone else in NA and the person was really upset. I would go to other meetings to try to avoid seeing him as much but I work during the day and there are only a handful of meetings in my area that I can go to at night and he seems to be at most of them. The last thing I need right now is "drama" in NA. Anybody have any suggestions on how to handle this?
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