If you feel that the issue you need to fix is your addiction to alcohol and the misery it is making of your life, there is indeed a cure! You CAN fix this. The answer is very simple. While it may or may not be easy, that question can't figure into your decision. Easy or hard, it doesn't matter. And I have a feeling you can do hard, Susan.
The cure is setting yourself free by never drinking again. There is an inner wail you hear when you read that, and that wail comes from a place of fear and uncertainty. Assign that fear to your imagined need to continue drinking, and make the choice to open yourself to all those experiences and opportunities currently denied to you.
Make that decision that the last drink you had will be the last drink you will have. People do this every day, and start their new lives with optimism and hope instead of misery, fear and despair. You can be one of them. Honest.
Please keep posting, Susan. There is support for you here of the very best kind.