Hi Julyers,
Just checking in. All is fine here.
Key of C, please don't worry about the pissy attitude thing. I'm right there with you. Will keep this short, so Snarky Toki doesn't start doing a mini-rant.
Holds- I'm sending good vibes your way. You should be having your appt. about now if you're in the U.S. (?). I've gone through, as fantail put it "existential moments" quite a bit. The last time those moments hit me hard was shortly after my mom died... Don't have good advice for you about the anxiety, but do empathize. You are doing the absolute right thing by not drinking. I was not as smart as you.
The fall leaves are getting brighter daily. I hope tomorrow is a sunny day up here in the driftless zone.
Take care, everyone!