The depression i had used to be like a broken record in my head .
I had a constant diatribe going on in my mind , a narrative .
I challenged the narration , made a job to counter every negative thought with 3 good ones . To focus on the positive things people say now rather than ghost of voices of people who are dead and who were hurt , daft , abused or angry themselves .
The thoughts diminish , the catch 22 trap is still there , like drinking but i avoid going there in my mental landscape .
With my 10,000 days left , i don't want to ever be drunk and have a hangover again , I don't ever want to be caught in the obsessive thoughts in the cage of depression .
Stop and drop the idea , change the broken record . Tend the fertile garden of your mind and thoughts by practising discrimination as to where you let your mind wander , which thoughts you encourage and make grow . Which ones you have to prune hard with regularity .
Keep on
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