Messed Up Again :(
Hello All, I havent posted in a while. I been though hell and back. Lost my job. Got into a severe depression. I had to go back to my psychiatrist and he changed all my meds and I felt better. I started going to meetings everyday and I stopped drinking for like 7 days and I felt much better. The problem is I am still depressed because my ex boyfriend and I broke up. Its been about 6 weeks since I haven't seen him and I actually started trying to see a new guy. But last night I drank a whole bottle of wine and I texted him telling him that I loved him and I wanted him back. I did this while the new guy was in my house. I woke up feeling terribly depressed. I do not want to drink anymore. I am going to pick up a white chip and really surrender this time. I am glad to be back and posting again. Any support would be appreciated.