Messed Up Again :(
Messed Up Again :(
Hello All, I havent posted in a while. I been though hell and back. Lost my job. Got into a severe depression. I had to go back to my psychiatrist and he changed all my meds and I felt better. I started going to meetings everyday and I stopped drinking for like 7 days and I felt much better. The problem is I am still depressed because my ex boyfriend and I broke up. Its been about 6 weeks since I haven't seen him and I actually started trying to see a new guy. But last night I drank a whole bottle of wine and I texted him telling him that I loved him and I wanted him back. I did this while the new guy was in my house. I woke up feeling terribly depressed. I do not want to drink anymore. I am going to pick up a white chip and really surrender this time. I am glad to be back and posting again. Any support would be appreciated.
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Yes vf keep coming back.. i to lost a very important relationship and it saddens me deeply.. i dont know if you really want to get back with your ex or not (i dont know if i do either) but drinking will obviously only destroy any chance. We must get sober for ourselves. Id say your on the right track getting back to AA and i would recommend finding a sponsor.. the fellowship of AA is great but only one side of the triangle.. the steps is where the magic happens.. good luck!!
Even if I didn 't do anything wrong and my life is perfect I still get depressed after drinking- it does that xo
I had a bad break up last winter, I know how you feel xo
I'm still not completely over him but oh well.
I had a bad break up last winter, I know how you feel xo
I'm still not completely over him but oh well.
Yes. I will not drink today. It only leads to my texting him and making a fool of myself when he obviously does not want to be with me. That relationship was not very healthy for me anyway. He did not drink and I did not drink when I was with him, but there were lots of other issues involved. I am going to a meeting today. I have a friend who is an ex addict and he has been coming with me. We do AA one day and NA the next. Both are helpful. But I do admit I drank last night. Not a whole bottle but 3 glasses. Enough to do some damage and text my ex again. He even told me to stop. I have to regain my self respect and let this reltionship go. If he really wanted to be with me he would. I need to work on myself. And a big part of that is to stop drinking and get healthy. Thank you for all your support.
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