Thanks for the replies guys, I really appreciate it. This site really means a lot to me, even though I may not be in my best stage of recovery. After posting yesterday, I managed to stay sober last night. While this night is not going as well, last night was the first time I stayed sober on a Wednsday night in years. While I may not be ready to quit, I think it is better to have quite a few day one's in a month, as opposed to a couple of day one's (and that is it) for the year. I am self employed, and I am also a college student. While I do stay busy with those activities, it can be difficult to not let anxiety or depression get the best of me. As a note, I was also diagnosed with OCD, and that can affect a person miserably. I am starting to think that I honestly need to see a neurologist. I am starting to honestly think that the mental disorders that I was diagnosed with are a result of some type of medical or brain imbalance.