QuietToday - great to see you determined once again to reclaim your life.
When I first joined SR I was a wreck too - and as a much older person. When I was your age I insisted that I could be a social drinker. As a result, my life fell apart. This never has to happen to you. I'm so glad you see where this is heading. We simply can't trust what'll happen once it's in our system. It always leads to danger and the unexpected. We don't need it.