Hi GhostFace
I really needed to make some changes in my life cos my life was all about drinking.
I had to be ready for those guys who'd call, and I had to be willing to forego the usual things I'd do if they involved alcohol.
You show some great self awareness in your initial post but there's two halves to that equation - thinking of what you should do, and then following through and do it.
Like Scott said, you'll get out of your recovery what you put into it, so give it all you have.
Would you go to meetings if they weren't AA for example?
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