Thank you all for your input. The past week has put me in a state of anger, more disappointed at myself on the person I’ve become. The past 3 days sober has giving me a bit of clarity on my action. I keep thinking about the future and how life would be without alcohol. What would my family and friends think knowing that I love to drink? Luckily my best friend and close family know my problem and encourage me to stop.
There’s a lot that I hold in and it actually feels good to let them out. As part of recovery, I tend to do daily update on the thread in hopes of support and accountability. It also feels good to know that there is other methods of sobriety that does not involve AA.
Thank you all.