CDR 55,
Apart from the depression I experienced the same sort of inertia that you are suffering. I knew I needed to stop drinking, realised the damage I was doing to my health and my family but ploughed on regardless.
One day in January this year everything clicked into place and I realised it was a now or never moment. I stopped drinking then and there and remain sober to today. I just hope that you have such a moment and that you can see it through. Once you have arrived at the decision then you can do AA or whatever other form of support suits you.
Best wishes
Michael