I have had stretches of sobriety but nothing long term, I had 5 months one time but that was a long time ago. I put myself in rehab in 2012 & drank a week later. This time I just can't get some days together. Here I thought my anxiety problems were do to my life stresses, but it probably is the alcohol. It's been discussed a little with my doctor, like 2 weeks ago & I played it off. She probably knew anyway. I am just soooooo ashamed! If I go to ER when baby is picked up, what will they do? I always handle my problems myself, I never want anyone to know & of course, I will have to go by myself too! Thanks everybody, your words are true for me, I am scared also.