I guess, Glee, I was trying to avoid being around people having fun while drinking. I feel stressed not being able to drink and it's too much. I can't pretend to be having a good time for very long. I feel awkward socially now. People expect something different from me and I've got nothing to give. I'm OK one to one or in small groups when the drinking is light but some stuff is too much. Much too much. I guess I'm not the person people thought I was. There's a big identity issue here and it's a bit scary...