False Thoughts
Ok SR I went on my bike ride and took 6 laps around my block after the first lap I wanted to quit but I truly hate odd numbers lol so I forced myself to keep going and ended up on 6 laps was dying on the sixth lap but I finished. My Lil brother called to invite me to a family bar b que. It's usually a 90% percent chance that I wouldn't go bc of past family issues.(gave him kidney and nvr said thank you) But I did say am going to do things differently so here am I at this bar b que feeling like a fish out of water. Lawd help me am trying. Another thing an I know am all over the place right now but I keep hving thoughts that I should just drive over to my xabf house and he will so happy that I showed up bc he misses me so much that he quit drinking. Lbvfs I want this absurd fantasy to be so real. Ugh