Had a really crappy fight with my husband over the weekend. He was away all last week, one of our kids sprained their foot and my husband was at a business dinner in another city and all buzzed up, leaving me to deal with it solo. I realize how much anger and resentment has been building up in me for a long time and a lot of it came tumbling out. I felt really jealous of my husband, for his time away, for being "wined and dined", for being able to drink like a normal person. I am so sick of being responsible, serious, caretaking, but I don't know how not to be this way. I really don't know how to have fun without alcohol. It is sad to be approaching two years of sobriety and still feel like I am f#cking floundering.