Texts, social media rants.... Id wake bolt upright thinking oh ****!!! What did I say! Checking my activity log too on fb. Ive been verbally abusive to my husband, have been phyiscally abusive, thrown out of bars, screaming and shouting (and falling over) with the injustice of it all "how dare he throw me out!" Etc etc. Throughally embarressing myself. The shame. The apologises. Asking for forgiveness. Ive broken stuff in a drunken rage (my kids toys is the one that really makes me ashamed) Kicking furniture and having a complete psychotic drunken outrage. Yeah being a drunk wasnt really fun at all was it?