The fear is consuming me..
Hello all! I just joined. This is kind of a pretty big deal for me. I recently admitted to myself that I'm an alcoholic. I've been sober for 6 days now. However, I've been there before. I've always managed to make it to 30 days and then little by little I start drinking again. Then I finally get to my old ways where I go all out and binge till I pass out and can't function for the next 4 days. Then the cycle starts again, and this is how it's been for the past 2 years.
My mom has finally told me she can't do this anymore and it broke my heart. I have a problem and this time I really want to stop for good.
My biggest fear at this point is that my liver might be so damaged that I may have cirrhosis. I want to get a liver damage test but I have no insurance. I haven't been able to find anything online on where I can go, reading about it has actually made it worse. So on top of dealing with normal withdrawal symptoms I'm freaking out and scared. I'm very lost.
I just needed to let this out since I can't sleep. Please help!!