I'm 33 days off of suboxone and the 1st 6 or 7 days was pretty tough. The insomnia was horrible. Pms got in the middle of it and that really thru me for a loop. I did a nice long, slow taper under a doctor's supervision.
I was holding my own until this thing with my husband and his job, (long story), and a switch just flipped. I don't know what the hell happened. Nothing else changed during that time.
I HAVE been on anti depressants this whole time. I feel as tho I have no emotions. Just blah. I don't seem to really care about anything including myself. I'm going thru the motions of life but it's meaningless. I've heard of people having depression issues getting off of suboxone but like I said, I was doing better until this other BS started.
I'm hoping it will pass soon. I will be honest, I've had thoughts about suicide. Not trying to be dramatic and it would have to get a whole lot worse but sometimes I think of it as a means to end pain. I would reach out before doing something stupid.