Thanks for the reminder, Dandylion.
I have some of the definition of insanity going on by even trying last night.
There has never been any responsibility from him of his actions towards me, and there is never any validation of my feelings - all I can expect is that there never will be. When I admit fault or make amends, he jumps right on it with 'supporting' statements of how bad I am.
I can't wait for a much, much different life and environment - and between you guys, his actions, and my own even, I am reminded over and over again of why.