Originally Posted by ScottFromWI

One of addictions' oldest tricks is to make you think that you aren't addicted, and I think you are seeing that right now.

Being "always with a beer in hand" when not at work is not a characteristic of a normal drinker by any stretch of the imagination. But your addiction would have you think that it is normal and you are right..it does feel weird at first. Over time you will get used to it though and things will be much better.