It is totally possible to change. And take it from someone who has been struggling for nearly 20 years, STOP NOW! It only gets worse and worse and worse. To think of the pain and mess I could have saved myself had I stopped 15 years ago….
Come on here whenever you need to. Start putting together a plan for how you will handle the evenings. Can you take your children to a park or go for a run? You could even hit up an AA meeting. You need to get a plan in place BEFORE you hit the critical time period. I learned that the hard way.
Best of luck to you!