Thanks DD. I am already on the other path, in the process of making a huge meal for myself and I'm sure I'll feel differently by the time I wake up. But the seed has been planted, I just hope it doesn't sprout by tomorrow. It is going to take alot of will power not to ring him kicking and screaming (he's done this before and his disappearance is nothing major but usually just another woman after getting 'bored' of me). This is going to take weeks to get over. He did sonething similar four years ago and he's about to turn 45. I should have known better.