Hi tetra! It will take time to heal after your grandmothers death. Maybe instead of feeling sad when you have a sudden thought of what she would do or say, think of it as a gift reminding you that she's still there? I was thinking of my two grandmothers, both deceased, the other day and was racking my brain for things I vividly remembered of them and was drawing blanks. So fuzzy and that made me really sad.
You're doing really well. Hang in there. Visa guy? You did the right thing tutoring. Don't let his subsequent behavior take away from that. Tutoring him got you out of the house, kept you busy, got you out of yourself, increased your confidence and skills. You made a difference. Is he out of line now? Yes. However, you did the right thing initially AND you didn't fall for it afterwards. Yay!
Hang in there.