I have made my peace with it. He has good n bad days. The head injury doesn't help. It is what it is. He looks at me with a lot of love n I do the same when things are good. He's something special to me even if he drinks excessively. I think I deal with him pretty well n adjusted accordingly since the accident.
What keeps me standing here beside him is knowing that this is it for me. I'll never let another man in my life. My picker is broke n its Getting retired. haha I'll devote my life to taking care of him, loving our granddaughter n playing with our dogs.