I am really proud of you, but to be a negative nelly, you have got to leave that guy alone, PLEASE!! Love ya and am happy you are moving forward, not backwards, even if it feels like tiny steps, it is still forwards. hon, just do you, the rest will come. take care of oyu, eat, work out, watch tv , read, and just concentrate on you. the rest falls into place when we don't force things. I look forward to the day when you have moved on and let your ex go. that weight must be heavy.